It’s official! The waiting game is over! Two weeks ago I said that if it was meant to be it would happen and it has! The Golden Handshake offered by the District was approved, so I’m hitting the road Jack! Friday June 7th will be my final day as an employee of the Azusa Unified School District, my final day as a guidance counselor at Azusa High School. It’s hard to believe my retirement is only weeks away. I have only 28 work days remaining. Incredible! At long last I’m going to boldly go where many have gone before! Yep that’s right, I’m about to join the ranks of those who have retired before me, kick back and take the world’s longest coffee break!
As excited as I am at the prospect of retirement I’d be lying if I told you I wasn’t nervous. In fact last Wednesday afternoon when I got the news I had butterflies in my stomach! I’d pretty much resigned myself to expect the worst and figured I’d be back behind my desk come Fall, so hearing that enough people had hopped aboard the “golden handshake express” was quite a pleasant surprise! “Oh my God” I said aloud, “I’m retiring!” A few moments later reality set in and with it came the butterflies.
The wonderful world of retirement is what we long for all our lives, the end of the employment line and what everyone who works for a living dreams of. It is the fruit of our labor, our just reward, and now here it is a mere 28 days away! So why am I so nervous? Why do I suddenly find myself experiencing doubts and a whole bunch of what ifs? I suppose it’s a normal reaction when faced with the prospect of the unknown. Why yesterday I even began second guessing myself about whether I was doing the right thing or not and began thinking that maybe I should keep working for a few more years. Thank God the voice of reason stepped in and ended my internal debate with a resounding “Are you insane! You deserve this damn it!”
And in that moment of clarity I did indeed come to my senses and realized I would be insane to continue working simply because I don’t know what may lie ahead. To do so out of fear would be ludicrous! Retirement is mine and I do deserve it! So on June 7th, come hell or high water I am walking away from my job of 25 years and not looking back, happily moving forward into my golden years with a smile on my face and a prayer in my heart.